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I met my current partner 2 years ago. When I met her, I felt an instant connection to her and had an overwhelming sensation that I wanted to be her best friend! We hung out for almost two years before we became romantically involved. Every time she came around I felt that same sensation that I just wanted her to like me, I wanted to be around her all the time. I also had this feeling of completely being comfortable with her, and feeling like I had known her forever. We became romantically involved a few months ago, and it was around this time that I started having dreams of being someone else, and my partner was in my dreams, only she was very young, around 16 or 17. We began talking about this, and I told her what was going on in my dreams and she told me of a girl in her neighborhood who had been killed. They were friends, and they liked each other and my partner had been very sad for a very long time about the loss of this particular girl. The dreams I have had are very vivid, there are certain things in them that werent ever talked about pertaining to this girl before my dreams that I simply couldn't have guessed or known. I was born 3 and a half years after this girl died. I also have marks on my body that correspond exactly with her death. We truly believe that I have come back to be with her, and we wish that we could find more people with similar stories so that we don't feel like we sound completely insane.
I want to share with you several dreams I have had, and I feel like they are more than dreams I feel like I was really there and I only have been shown a glimpse past life, not sure why and I really don't understand it. There's three dreams that I had in a period of 3 months time frame.
My 12 year old daughter just confided to me that she has had this reoccurring dream on and off since she could remember. She is on a large ship in a "beautiful room with a small window and wallpaper." She said she felt pretty like a princess. But then suddenly the ship is sinking and she is put on a lifeboat. That is all she remembers. She says it all goes black. When asked what boat, she without hesitation says the Titanic. She has never watched the movie nor have I seen her have any interest in the topic in the past. I am not sure what to do with this information.
Back in 1960 my wife and I met a man and his wife from our down east town. They had a daughter named Beverly. When Beverley was 23 she came down with cancer and died. About 30 years later, I began having thoughts of Beverley, and I asked my wife, "Why is Beverley in my mind so much?" It seemed like not a day went by when Beverley did not come into my thoughts. Then one night I was awakened by a voice that said "Beverley". Being half asleep and awake, I said, "What about her?" Then I was shown a photo of a young girl named Melissa who worked at the bingo hall. When I next saw Melissa, I told her what I experienced. She told me when she was 23, it was the worst time in her life. She said she had pain in every part of her body. She said doctors never did find out what caused the pain. Beverley and Melissa were born in the same city. I told Melissa that she had another body in the nearby graveyard.
I don't know if this is printworthy or not, given that there isn't a ton of info. But I thought it very interesting.
I am a 63 year old woman and just recently saw a program regarding reincarnation and a young man that remembered a past life and dying in a submarine during WWII. He was able to trace this history and found incredible accuracy in the names and dates. There is no clear resolution to what I have known since I was either 7 or 8 years old. Although I enjoyed playing with other children, I also craved time alone to lay on the grass or sit in my room and think. A fact came into my mind out of nowhere that told me, "you will always know what is going on in this world for all time". As a young child, the thought of dying had not entered my consciousness. I recall sitting on my porch and looking down at my 8 year old girl-child arms and getting a glance of darkly tanned skin with blond hairs covering very muscular forearms - not my actual arms! That is when I remembered being a 4 year old on Christmas Eve and I could recall the intense desire that Santa would bring me very specific clothing: denim jeans and plaid shirts with white snap "buttons". I snuck into the packages late one afternoon and opened a small package that held little boy's clothing - jeans and plaid flannel shirts - I could hardly sleep that night. On Christmas morning the packages were handed out and the little package of "my clothing" was handed to my cousin, a little boy my age. I can still recall the anger and disappointment I experienced. All during those young years I craved to have holsters and guns, cowboy hats and the like. I had no brothers at the time and no exposure to any of the items I begged to receive. During this period of my life, the dream came to me - I was a young man dressed in jeans and cowboy shirt and I found myself on my back in a dusty, dirty area trying desperately to get out of the way of a white stallion that was hovering over me on it's hind legs - I felt the sheer desperation and the fear, I smelled the dirt, manure and the horse (of which I had never been around in my life), and then the horse's hoof came down on my head, shutting out all sights, sounds and smells - and then I had what I can only guess was a dream within a dream? As I lay on the dirt dying, "my" entire life flashed before me - I saw the faces of people I had hurt, I saw my parents and the lies I told to them, I saw countless faces flash in my mind, each with an expression that I put there with bad behaviors. Only in later years did I relate this recurring "dream" to NDE's. These memories have a permanent imprint in my mind. On a side note, when I was in my early teens, I asked my mom about a large "divot" located on the top of my head and she said "it's just always been there sweetie".
I don't believe I realized at the time what it was but when I was in kindergarten the teacher mentioned something about the war (which would have been WW1 since I am 78 years old now) and I remember putting my hand up and relating a story about being a nurse in the war and being killed. My teacher asked if this was a relative and I was embarrassed and said "yes". One day when my mother picked me up from school, the teacher said how sorry she was to hear that one of my mother's relatives, a nurse, had been killed in the war. I remember my mother telling her she didn't know what she meant, she didn't have any female relatives in the war, so she let is go at that. It just seemed to come out of me, the telling of the story, and I forgot about it until I began studying reincarnation and what it could mean as a philosophy of life.
I am a 52 year old female living in Texas. About 20 years ago I went to a hypnotist who specialized in past-life regressions, although she said she did not really believe in reincarnation. During my regression, I found myself on a wide river in a canoe. I felt that the area was somewhere north of New York, maybe in Canada, and the time period was sometime around the 1700s. I was a young, strong Native American male, about 20 years old. I saw the tent (or tipi) that I lived in with my wife. It was larger than I would have expected a tipi to be -- a diameter of maybe 10 feet or more. I saw my wife holding our baby son. In my current life as a woman, I am very interested in babies and small children. Although I don't have any children of my own, I find them fascinating, and I like to talk to them and get them interested in me. In my regression, there was none of that feeling. As a young man, I felt annoyed with the child's crying, and couldn't wait to get away and be with the other men of the tribe. I was not at all interested in the baby, even though he was my son. That's what convinces me that this was probably a true memory-- that in it I was so unlike the woman that I am in this current lifetime. In my regression, I could see my wife very vividly. She was short and plump with long black hair and a round face, and wore long, robe-like garments. I felt that she wished I would stay home more to be with her and the baby, but I was simply not interested. I liked to spend time with the older men of the tribe and my friends who were my age. The next thing I remember was being in a battle with white soldiers. We had simple knives as weapons, but they had guns. We had never seen guns before. It was a quick battle-- they shot us all and left. I can remember lying on the ground, hearing some of the other men from my tribe moaning. I wished the white soldiers had finished us off, but they just left us, some of us dying slowly. It took me the rest of that day, a night, and most of the next day to die. I don't remember feeling pain, but I do remember lying on my back, unable to get up, looking up at the sun. It was so excrutiatingly bright that it really hurt my eyes. I couldn't turn away from it, but just had to look up at it or close my eyes. It was like torture. In my current life, I don't really like sunny days as the sun hurts my eyes, and now I believe that comes from that lifetime. I wonder what happened to the women, children and old men of the tribe after all the young men were killed. I also wonder if my child lived on and if I might have descendents from that lifetime alive today. I was not a very good father to my little son, and perhaps that's why I don't have children in this lifetime. I would also like to note that I am not particularly interested in Native Americans in my current lifetime, so it surprised me that I remembered being a Native American in a past life.
I was regressed by a friend who was a professional psychologist (she has her Masters or PhD) a few years ago. The regression explained a severe fear of storms that I had as a child. The regression even produced a spot on my leg that spontaneous started bleeding during the regression. When I came out of the regression we wiped my leg but there was no mark where the blood was coming from on my leg. My friend did not notice it since she has poor eyesight and was sitting across the room. I noticed it when I sat up because the blood was running down my leg from a spot mid-thigh. My friend was quite amazed because she had never seen anyone bleed from past life injuries.
I emigrated to the U.S. from Ukraine. Recently I watched a TV show about lighthouse in Crimea peninsula which became a source of conflict between Russia and Ukraine. I read on the lighthouse's gates "Sarych". I have never heard either this name or this word, however, the phrase "Sarych na keechku!" immediately popped up in my head. It is important to note that I almost forcefully pronounced this phrase in the form of outcry. The feeling that I have to outcry this phrase continued for the following several days. I came to the conclusion that this is an outcry of the attacking warrior during Mongol invasion in old Turk language. I thought to myself that this phrase means the call to attack the place named Sarych and the word "keechku" or "keechka" means "spear". I concluded that the warrior cried this phrase out right before he was killed. However, I don't know Turk language, I have never lived among Tatars, and I have never been in Crimea. In my search for an answer of this mystery I contacted many old Turk language experts in Simferopol', Ukraine and Kazan', Russia (places with predominately Tatar population). Finally one professional linguist told me that this phrase means the call for weapon or call for attack in an old Turk language. Obviously, his explanation is almost the same as my contemplation. At that moment I understood that this is a result of reincarnation and I used to be a Mongol warrior in my past life.
I try to keep an open mind about things, and reincarnation is one of them. In my life, there have been odd things that have occurred that makes me wonder, though I have never investigated them further.
This site has been very valuable to my own personal growth and understanding. I see many fragmented pieces of my previous and current life in all of the stories that I have read, which lets me know that each and every one of us share kindred spirits. Our lives and soul experiences have been intricately interwoven. I am thirty-five ears old, and I've been "different" for as long as I can remember. Not only can I remember bits and pieces of my previous life, but I am also scarred by the events of my previous life. I came into this life longing for a daughter that I never had in this life, and pining for a soulmate that I have never met in this life. I grew up in a christian based family, and my beliefs in reincarnation and other spiritually based convictions have always ordained me as the "black sheep" of the family, or "the wayward one " I have been researching on the concept of Reincarnation for over nineteen years. My obsession with reincarnation started when I had a difficult time accepting my current life without the "daughter" and "soulmate" that I had been longing for. I read everything that I could get my hands on about reincarnation. I experimented with the past life teas, (herbal teas that were supposed to unlock the past life memories of the subconscious) . The teas worked, as I began to have vivid dreams and OBE's(Out of Body Experiences) of my previous life. My first experience led me to a life lived in New Jersey in a small apartment, I was a very dark black young woman with long, thick , and wavy hair. I had been walking with a young girl of five or six years of age, perhaps four, and her little hand had been locked into mines. My heart had been so full of love and devotion for this beautiful little duplicate of me in that life. She asked me a question, "Mommy, are you and Daddy going to make a baby?" I never responded, and I seemed to have had alot of things on my mind. I immediately had come back to my present conscious self. The next OBE had me inside of the apartment, that I presume to have been in Jersey. There had been three bi-racial children there with me, one was in a baby seat, the two other one's were perhaps five and six years old, all three were boys. Seemingly, this had been the same lifetime that I had had previously. Again, I seemed unhappy and stressed. I was worried about the youngest baby, and believing that something was wrong with him, such as an illness of sorts. The man of whom had fathered my children, had been in the apartment asking the oldest son a question. I realized then upon returning from that experience that my then daughter, and the boys had been fathered by two different men. The boys father's name was Sam, and I wasn't happy with him at all. I felt confined and separated from a greater love, the father of my then daughter .....my soulmate. I have thus been in a relationship with Sam in this life for a short time, and once again the relationship was stifling and miserable. He was that same overprotective, jealous, and possessive man that he was in the previous life. I guess that's why I knew that it would have to end. I have not yet had the pleasure of meeting that 'other half of my soul' in this life. My current husband, was an older man that had been a cab driver in my then life. ( To this day he can go anywhere once and automatically know how to get there at a later date....he's very good with directions and finding places} Every day of this current life of mine's has been spent in guilt, torment, and suffering. My heart is broken, and I don't think that it will ever mend, not whilst my soulmate and love child are still out there somewhere, either on this plane of existence or the soul plane. What seems to have been my biggest punishment in this life, and a blessing as well, is that I never forgot about the two people "souls" that have meant more to me than even my own life, the two people that I couldn't hold on to. There are three lifetimes that I'm connected to, the one that I've just mentioned, and two other lifetimes in which sorcery, and witchcraft, and voodoo were my personal arenas. I have had dreams and OBE's of cutting the throat of a black cat, carving symbols in the palms of pupils. I quote from my dream journal: "We were outdoors.. I was teaching women...african women. I spoke in a a foreign language-perhaps a combination of french and african, a unique language of itself. There were women lined up in rolls sitting on the ground, perhaps twenty or more. When I entered this outdoor place, I began speaking in a foreign tongue and the women immediately started prostrating theirselves. I was greatly revered." This was the first of three dream scenarios/OBE's in one night. All three were very similar, and involved magic, and sorcery. However, the third was special to me because the young woman in that dream may have been the daughter from the last previous life. I quote briefly the second dream scenario, "I had floated through heavy green doors to an outer clearing, and it was raining heavily. The rain seemed to be calling out to me, I heard a voice telling me that I wouldn't be able to go out into the rain, however, I did go out. The third scenario, I quote: A woman sitting in front facing around twenty women was bragging about how she had put poison in some woman's seasonings, and she was very proud. My daughter was teaching a few other young girls in a different area. I went to check on her, and she was such a lovely young woman , bold and confident--she loved being naked , especially during outdoor rituals and gatherings. I can recall looking at a young girl's assignment in her book of witchcraft. She had shown me her answer, and it had been written in French or something. I could go on and on telling similar stories, and connecting present life circumstances with past life scenarios, but I'm afraid that I've already taken up too much space as it is. I give my permission for this account to be published anonymously on the "In Another Life" website. Thank you so much for sharing this site with all of us, it has trully been an inspiration. Again, I have so much more to tell but perhaps at a later date.
My husband didn't believe in reincarnation until I questioned him about his childhood. My problem was that he talked about different places where he lived and it occured to me that he couldn't have lived in those places when he said he did. For instance, he couldn't be in Galveston, Texas and in Kansas City, Missouri at the same time.
This writer is the daughter of the writer of the account immediately above
I have had a few past live dreams, I am a vivid dreamer who dreams all the time while sleeping. This dream and few others stand out some how, I just know it is a different type of dream, a past life dream. In my dream I am old, I am in a moving train. I am in the caboose, it is night, there are other people there. I am sitting with my back to the back of the caboose. Others are beside me and also setting on the sides of the train car. There are two lanterns lit, one in the front of the car on the side and one in the back of the car on the side. I have a long skirt on that goes to my shoes, made of material that feels terrible and coarse, it is wrinkled and a dirty linen color. I have lots of cloths on, layers under my skirt and top. Others are dressed in period clothing also, I am old about 55 or sixty, that is not old today but seemed very old then.
A year and a half ago my daughter came to me one day and stated that she missed her mother. She was 3 at the time. I looked down and laughed and I told her, "I am your mother." She said, "No my mom Garcia." I said, "What?" and then I just said "What was your mother's name?" and she said "Garcia, my dad Garcia killed her." She pointed to her forehead and she said "Right there." She went on to mention an uncle and she talks about her mother being pretty and having hair like mine. She is 4 now and she continues to talk about them. But there are no names, just my mom Garcia and my dad Garcia is what she says when she mentions them. We were driving around town in our van and she sits in her car seat, the last seat in the back, and one day she yelled, "Look, that looks like my mom Garcia's car." She came home from school one day and she said, "I thought my mom Garcia was gonna pick me up today" and she seemed very disappointed.
I knew a person once who,
at the age of 3, told me that he was a fighter pilot. He then
demonstrated how his plane had crashed and how he had died. I
don't think he understood the meaning of dying at that age but
still, he was talking about it. He then told me that his mom,
was not his mom, and that his mom lived somewhere else, in some
other city. He even told me his name, the name he had in his
previous incarnation.
Cliff and Helen's son had just started to speak. Like with
most children, his parents had trouble understanding what Jeff
was saying. They thought his words sounded a little odd, but
he was able to point to what he wanted at the same time as he
asked, so they soon learned to follow his gobbledegook words.
I think that my daughter has been telling me about her past life. The thing is that no one believes me. She talks as she is my Aunt that died in 1957. I named my daughter after my grandmother. Which was the same name as my Aunt I just found that out not to long ago from my mom. She talks about how she died and what happened to her. When she started talking like this I was thinking I was going crazy. I'm glad to find out that there are children out there that do talk about their past lives.
A woman received a packet of family photo albums from her
nephew. It had belonged to her recently deceased elder sister.
The packet contained albums of her parents, and both sets of
her Grandparents, all now deceased. The photos of her Grandparents
(maternal and paternal) were all taken in Ireland, well before
her parents immigrated to America.
I was brought up as an orthodox Protestant. However, right
from the time of being a small child I have had memories of being
an adult in particular situations which I could have had no knowledge
of. One in particular was of being Scottish and hiding in the
dark in reeds, or marshes, from red coats. I had no idea as a
child who these people were who wanted to kill me.
This evening we did a search re Reincarnation following a
programme on British TV which was about children apparently recalling
events that they shouldn't have known about. Whilst we watched
the programme I remembered a recurring dream that I used to have
when I was a boy, it occurred from the age of about 8 to around
12, and I have never had it since.
I have absolutely no proof myself of reincarnation, but I've
been very interested in it lately. Back in May of this year,
my husband and I took a two day vacation to Galveston, TX with
two of our children. The whole time I was there, I had this weird
feeling about the whole place. All we did was spend the entire
time at the beach and at night, we left our two kids with a nanny
we brought along and my husband and I went out to eat at two
different restaurants. We also drove around the island and while
we were doing that, I kept feeling this strange haunted feeling,
as if there was this constant ominous prescence about the whole
place. When we went to the other side of the island, by the Bishop's
house, we got out and walked around and I kept feeling as if
I was being watched. Like there were people everywhere, watching
us, even though there were no other people around. I kept wondering
to my husband why there were so many graveyards there and I kept
feeling as if something horrible had happened. When my husband
(who was taken with Galveston--he'd love to live on the beach)
asked if I'd ever like to move there (we have five kids and are
looking into moving to a smaller town when our kids are high
school age and sending them to private high schools might not
be financially possible) I said, "No!! I wouldn't want to
live HERE!!" He asked why and I couldn't really answer.
The only answer I had for him was, "They have hurricanes
here." Also, a few times, my husband and I left our children
with the nanny on the beach for a minute while we went out into
the ocean for an adult swim time, I kept having this thought
in my head about that when I died, I'd remember the ocean the
most. It was a weird sensation that I attributed only to the
experience of the vacation. Only later, I wondered. . I am a 46 year old male from Pennsylvania--all my life
I have had feelings, dreams, & embedded thoughts that I had
been alive during the 1890's. As a child, I had very vivid visions
and dreams of places and situations. I rarely shared any of these
because when I did, I was made fun of or just ignored. I certainly
wish I had some kind of physical evidence to substantiate this,
like the gentleman from Connecticut that was an officer during
the American Civil War. Unfortunately all I have is memories
that fade as the years pass. Although I have no physical evidence,
It's just a good feeling to know that I am not alone with this.
One of the memories I've had places me in a park or church yard
setting. Sometimes it seems to be like a family reunion picnic,
or a Sunday after church type atmosphere. Other times it has
been the 4th of July celebration, Memorial Day, and such as that.
There is almost always a small river or large creek. I'm not
exactly sure what year it is, but I am most certain of the era
by the fashion of the clothing worn by all. The earliest memory
I can recall of this ( I can't remember the age ), was outside
of a big house with a medium sized yard, gathering snow in buckets
with several other kids and adults coming out and we all sat
&/or stood on these wide steps that led up from the end of
the yard to the walk that led to the front steps of the house,
and the adults helped us make ice cream in a bucket with a turn
crank. My memories of that life have been in childhood, adolescence,
young man, to adult, on jobs, in taverns, and even though they
rarely come anymore, I have enjoyed them profoundly throughout
this entire life. Now I only feel a little cheated that I have
no physical evidence of my experiences, and feelings, and a little
envious of those who do!
I am a very "Irish" personality if you get my meaning. I grew
up with my Gran's stories of the wee folk and such, and I've
had several eerie experiences with deja-vu (picking up the phone
before it rang, being able to people how to get to a place I've
never been). I don't resemble my siblings or my parents, but
I do very much resemble my grandmother's family, especially my
great-grandmother. My great-grandparents left Ireland in somewhat
of the scandel of marrying below one's class (my great -grandmother
was one of the family's maids)...Apparently my great-grandfather
was never forgiven. I went through school drawing, painting and
writing. I was in an art history class in high school when the
teacher displayed a slide by a 17th century Irish artist. I glanced
up and nearly fell from my seat. I was looking back at my own
face, at about my own age.The painting was done about 1680. The
room was silent and my mates were staring at me, rather openmouthed.
My teacher was also rather dumbfounded. I've not been able to
track down the painting since, and my art teacher passed away
shortly after my senior year. I did know it came from the Kent
State University archives.
My daughter's 7 year old half-brother once told his great grandmother (I know, too convoluted, right ?) that he used to
change her diapers when her mother was too tired to do it. The
only person that fit that description was the great grandmother's
older brother.The child has always been her favorite, now I wonder
why?
Last night the idea of how past lives influence our current
behaviors occurred to me. I had a dream once, of being on the
Titanic, and I mean fully dressed in the clothes of the period,
whole nine yards--while the ship was sinking. In it, I was lifting
my now-oldest son up to some people in order to save him, through
something like a porthole or window. He also had on some kind
of costume from then--knee breeches or something similar. Anyway,
he made it; I didn't. Now I get accused of not being harsh enough
on him, and just being entirely too lenient. And it's like I
can't help it, although I have gotten better at it since he started
school. In the dream, my child was about age 4. Now he is 5,
and maybe I'm getting more strict on him because he is past the
age that he was in the dream. I woke up from that dream feeling
like someone had stuck a pillow over my head, gasping for breath.
Anyway, just an illustration on how it seems past lives, however
long ago, still infuence us today.
My four-year-old nephew talked about "when he had a wife"
but I haven't had too much personal experience with past lives,
I'm just interested in the subject...I should also tell you that
the very same nephew has told me that when he was a man with
a wife, he was shot and killed. Then he said but he went to the
hospital and died but then he was okay again so hmmm...
My daughter has only had one past life memory (or only one
that she both recognizes & chooses to share with ol' mom!).
She says that she has repeatedly had a dream where she is in
the water & a ship is retreating into the distance. She did
tell me after I started sharing my past life recollections with
her that it did occur to her that this might be part of a past
life memory. I really think that it is.She says that in the dream
she is an adolescent female with curly red hair & that she
knows she is being left behind. (Ironically, she has no fear
of water, but does have phobias of abandonment. As a toddler
she was downright panicky about how soon I'd return whenever
I had to leave her!).
I don't have this first hand anymore. I can't remember who
told me, but when I lived in Norfolk (England) I remember a lady
telling about a friend's son, who got very badly frightened one
day when they were driving the car across a bridge over a river.
He started crying that this was where he had died and he was
scared it was going to happen again. His mother reassured him
that he wasn't going to fall into the water, that the bridge
was strong (she was very spooked by it), and the boy said--"it
was when I was a lady--I fell into the water." They discovered
that years previously a car with a lady inside had crashed through
the side of the bridge and plunged into the river below.
I have been able to recall parts of many lives. I was mostly
female, twice male. I was both privileged, and destitute. Educated,
and ignorant. I was hearty and healthy, I was drug addicted and
dying of TB...I could go on and on! It seemed that my lives followed
a pendulum swing between great good , and terrible misfortune.
Killed by accident, killed myself (twice, stupid me) died of
old age...sometimes alone, sometimes surrounded by loved ones.
I'm not sure if this is some form of a past life memory or
not. This dream has made me very interested in the topic. I could
only see through my eyes throuout the entire dream. I was laying
in a bed in a kitchen. A very old fashioned kitchen, but it did
have running water. A young girl was washing in the sink. I called
her to me and she sat beside me on the bed. She started to braid
my hair, I could see my hair was long and silver. Then I felt
myself lift out of her body. I could see her lying there with
the young girl. I knew she was dead. Next I was at a funeral,
I was just kind of hovering there. I saw the young girl there,
then I just began to float up. I saw some odd orbs of light and
the dream ended. I do know that I felt happy throughout the dream,
kind of relaxed.
In 1971, at the age of 20, I moved from Los Angeles to Jefferson
County, Colorado. Driving, pulling a trailer, I came up through
New Mexico wanting to go through Taos. The closer I got, the
more intense the "feeling" became. I looked over to
the west, just south of Taos, and saw a beautiful mesa with a
large canyon...sunset, clouds...just beautiful. But this "feeling,"
extremely intense...it was grief and I had no idea why.
I couldn't get out of there fast enough. I drove north into the
mountains towards Eagles Nest, NM and pulled over, shaking and
crying like a baby. I never went back through Taos again.
A 14-year-old boy was into self-mutilation. He was carving
his skin with razor blades and suffered from a serious learning
disability. No traditional therapies were able to provide relief
for him. His mother called about a past-life session in my office.
It turned out in a previous life he refused any contact with
human beings and lived an isolationist lifestyle for years.
...last April (about a year ago now), I met this guy. Not
the guy I was dating, so that would make it the second week of
April we met. He'd been at our school for two weeks, but had
known one of my friends practically forever. Trust me, all this
information is important.
...I believe in Jesus as my savior...and, actually...it's partially
due to my belief in reincarnation! I have remembered living prior
lives since I was literally in my crib. Totally freaks you out...(try
to imagine waking up in a baby's body tomorrow, after having
a very traumatic experience today.) But I also recall what I
can only describe as a place or plane...between lives, and Jesus
was there. The same Jesus. The living, glorified Jesus. Not "just"
a "loving light" or energy, or a pure, loving "entity,"
It was Jesus. I believe that at some point in each life...or
lives...all will have a chance to know Jesus for who He is. Now,
did Jesus "appear" to me in that plane instead of Buddha,
or another religious figure BECAUSE that is what I "expected"
I don't believe so. I was an infant when I remembered this, so
I hadn't yet "learned" of Jesus in this lifetime. Was
it becuase I was a Christian in a prior life? Maybe so. BUT...the
past life I remember as my happiest, most cherished life was
as a Native American. If anything, I think I would have expected
something symbolical of that belief system...not Jesus.
When he was almost four, one of my twins was kind of sleepy
in the back seat of my van when we arrived home. As I took him
out of his carseat, he said to me, very clearly, "When I
was an old man, I used to have a big black car. I had a hat on,
and a man drove me around. It was my own car, and I was rich.
I was a judge." This was a real shocker for me, because
neither twin had ever referred to himself as an 'old man' before.
This one had never been so articulate about such things. That
cemented my opinion that children do have strong recollections
of past lives. Sadly, by age four, no more information about
past lives was volunteered by either of my twins.
In the beginning of the '80's I visited Prague and a friend took me to an exhibition where they showed old hand-painted Bibles from all centuries. I liked them a lot and strolled peacefully in that room looking at all of them. All of a sudden I stopped before one and had a flashback from a former life in which I was a monk who had spent his entire life to paint one Bible. The book before me, was the book I had painted in this life around 1100. It was such a good and peaceful life. I was not very bright, a simple and devoted soul, not asking for anything more than what I did.
I did a past-life regression where I saw myself as an aboriginal male in some prehistoric time, being a son of the tribechief, very proud and arrogant, and having something to do with starting a war between "my" tribe and another one. During the regression I experienced very vividly killing other human beings by piercing them through with a spear. From the "higher perspective" this was all so wrong and it was really a horrible experience, involving a lot of pain and guilt. I felt the other people's pain, fear, and saw lots of things that could have occurred but that I'd wasted through killing those people. I went through that lifetime, and as I grew old I began to understand THIS WAS NOT THE WAY. And as I was about to die my last thought was: I've done it all the wrong way, and there's no time to make amends... |
Opening music: "You Look Like a Memory," album, "Reincarnation," Fat City
(written by Bill Danoff and Taffy Nivert, who also wrote John Denver's hit, "Country Roads")